The Sensitive Heart

“it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are”.   e.e. cummings

i carry

It's your heart handle with care.

The memory of reading an e.e.cummings poem brings joy to my heart, and his poem “i carry your heart with me” moves me to tears.  The first thing I noticed when introduced to an e.e.cummings poem was his style of using lower case letters
and unusual word placement.  His poems visually appeared to be a sharp contrast from the other poets enjoyed by the class, and on some level  I realized —he’s different.   I wish I could say that my life was changed, and I immediately  accepted my own differences.  Like most young people I fell into wanting to fit in the same shoes as every one else, but not individual enough to walk well in loose-fitting shoes.    I believe I connected to his sensitivity in the poems, which leads to recent information I’ve found that I think can make a difference in my life.

I’ve always been aware of my sensitivity.  Painfully, reminded many times by parents, teachers, and classmates.  Elaine Aron, PhD author of The Highly Sensitivity Person, a book about how sensitivity affects our close relationships brings this to the surface for me.  She began researching high sensitivity in 1991 also calling it Sensory-Processing Sensitivity (SPS, the trait’s scientific term).  I have a strong connection to this new break through.  I find myself feeling more like “yes, this sounds like me”.    I’m not crazy –I have a tribe to connect with that will understand these mixed emotions of mine, and relate how crazy it feels.   I plan to keep up my own investigation about where this new information will continue to lead me.   I encourage you to check out Elaine Aron and her article in Psychology Today available
at newsstands.  Here is a peek:

http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/201107/sense-and-sensitivity

Thank you for stopping by  Reflective Journey

Barra

www.bargus-art.com

Is risk worth the effort to find creativity?

Sometime I get stuck in a very snug safe place in my own cocoon and I forget …that to grow ….I must keep changing.  At this first thought, I quickly pull out my box of quotes that I’ve accumulated over time.

I found this one by Buckminster Fuller “There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it’s going to be a butterfly”.   That quote inspires me to rethink where I am today.  Rethink taking a risk.   It seems to take me back to hope with the gentle reminder that God’s world is full of promise no matter the circumstances.  The struggle is worth the effort as hope spreads its wings to help me fly.  As hope and inspiration join together it improves my ability to open my mind to a new way of seeing the world.  I trust it will help you.

Take a risk.

2009 Highlights

Chelsey

He Is Our Savior

I experienced several fun art events in 2009. My painting “Day Two” was juried into the Texas Watercolor Society exhibit at the Witte Museum in San Antonio; a painting was displayed at the ABIA Airport; a painting was juried into the Corridor of Art; and a painting was displayed at North Hills Gallery in Austin,Texas. My husband delighted me with a trip to Albuquerque, New Mexico for a visit with my sister’s family, a stop in Las Cruces, a visit to the petroglyphs, a local art fair in Corrales, and some sweet time in Santa Fe. I enjoyed a wonderful day taking a print making workshop presented to me in Albuquerque at New Grounds Print Shop — a great day learning about mono type prints with Regina Held. To end the trip we drove to Oklahoma City to watch some Big 12 baseball.

One of my big art lighlights this year was an opportunity to work with my grand daughter to create her very own “He’s our Savior” painting for her bedroom. Thank you, Chelsey for spending time to learn a few painting tricks and sharing time with me. We had so much fun!

2009 was a good year, and I am looking forward to 2010. Happy New Year!

Art happens!
Barra

Don’t color me black and white

see my world

”  The purest and most thoughtful minds are those which love colour the most. ”    John Ruskin

There is a place in my life where I see blind spots, and I need help to see the world, and myself.  My art continues to help me discover new insights about how I work, and how I fit in the world.

Color is a very big part of my painting experience.  Seeing and thinking  in black and white stops that  process.   Color enriches my life, motives my spirit, and can serve as a reminder of  an experience.  It can draw me into another place — where my imagination lives.

Music and words are powerful tools.  Listening to music while I create art  is part of my process.  I sometimes use words or numbers in my paintings to add a spark  to a concept, build interest in a certain section of a painting or graphic.  I believe that color follows music in its ability to excite human emotions, and words move us to write.

The industry of color guides designers, artists, and an array of creative people to predict color combinations to surround us in our homes, our work place, and what we wear. Color is all around us, and I am amazed how God created us — to see it.

A spark of  the imagination — sumphero!  Art happens!

Barra